
All I do is because I know that one day I will have babies and I know how important to be that kind of parent who can be an example for the kids. Who they can follow or be inspired.
I want to be a step for my children to get one step higher.
Do I wanna boys or girls? If I get boys? perfect. Girls? Great!
I really feel sorry for those girls who already 27 but has no boyfriend. Who knows maybe I will be one of them and I will feel sorry for myself too.
But I have still 6 years to remember what I wanna. These girls are usually either not ready for a man or they have so low self esteem that a man will just not even notice them.
What is the HUGE different between a boy and a man? A man really know what he wants and he will go for it. He wants that woman? The he will pick her up no matter what. A boy wont take any effort. He will always have other options. He might have an idea but thats is not enough. He is just testing.
A man is working on building his future. Thinks about the family and on his own carrer. A boy wont think about it. He will think about the parties that is coming up in the weekend and he is certainly sure he wont get married.
But its the same about woman vs. girl.

If you actually wanna know if who is worth to be with... Just put the ugliest face you have, wear some comfortable non sexy clothes and be freak and act silly. Because this is how we actually are. If he still likes us and think it is kind of a cute thing. Then yes it definitely is worth a relationship.
Being together doesn't always mean that you talk or you always talk. Sometimes just sitting in the same room and do completely diferent things. But still you are enjoying each others company without saying any word to each other.
Jelousy is probably something that can break a good relationship. If you think too much about the other girls will costs you your confidence.. Because paying too much attention or blowing others shine wont make you shinier.
However its good to keep in mind just in case: If the guy gets impressed by some other pretty faces then probably he is not the kind we want.
About myself in general? I think I am happy. Or well at least I feel good. I am very excited about summer. Me and my friend will go to swimming pool soon. She actually wanted to go this weekend but the weather is so silly that nonono. Later will be better.
I met my friend I really like being with him as we can talk like really honest. And he tells me his opinion about things. He knows me like really well and he just says I am that kind of girl who lives in an other world.
He knows that I have a boyfriend now, and he said it's very risky for me to put my trust in anybody because there are 2 kind of man. One who will use my naivety against me and one who will protect me and remind me that the world is not a kind place.
I am finishing my degree in one year. Yay! I will take a rest a bit and then start something new. And I wanna be a model! I mean just ask someone to take nice pictures of me. I am still not certainly sure where I will be in 5 years but I know I will be a better version of myself.
I wanna leave this job because here I dislike some people. It doesn't really matter why but still.

Why to be this superficial piece of a little shit? I would love to tell them how asshole pitiful they are. But.. Would I be a better person? No. Does it matter? No. So I just ignore.
However most of the time I keep my thought for only myself. I think I am a thinker.
Just keep on. I am the change I want to see. And I can make it.
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