belong to whom

Maybe the hardest part in life is to walk away from something that one day put a smile on your face. And realise there are certain things that will never work. No matter how hard we try. No matter how hard we want. It's just not meant to be.
There is no sense to force something. It's not the person. It's never the person. It's the way they make you feel. The attention they pay. The caring company they offer on a lonely day.
Suddenly you remember all the good things. Because you know it's about to finish.





I couldn't help but wonder. Is it a waste of time to be with someone while im knowing it wont last long? I know, it makes me a better person. It changes me for the better. Sometimes I feel strong enough to leave behind the pain. And be alone again in this world. But for a weak moment I cry back the happiness and all I need is someone standing right next to me. Is it normal?

Nowadays I am feeling so unsecure. I hate the question. I dont dare to imagine the future. Where will I be able to be a part of the people who is around me? Where will I find The One who I belong to?

I feel like I am different from others. Somehow I am just not able to be with other girls. I have a really hm... I dont mean that different personality.  But not like the rest. I need some time to be alone. I look forward to get a dog. Take huge walk. Sometimes all I need is a company. And not a person to talk to. Sometimes all I need is another soul. No need to talk. Nowadays I just feel like to get out to the nowhere and scream a huge and let it all out. I dont wanna be alone. I just wanna belong to somewhere.
 ...Or to someone.