Best timing

I have so many people in my life who teaches me without knowing it.  Yes I do follow a lot of people, I do follow a lot of people from my life. I have so many experiences that I feel like sometimes I am so worn out.

In my blog I always try to avoid to make my own opinion about others, because its not about that. will never be. I tried to concantrate on my own world and I dont wanna change that. I just keep myself questioning.... Is it really what I wanna do in my life? Am I on the right path? Will I be happy? Is it possible to have something new? Or to change? I am not from a good family, I am not a princess nor a girl with a HUGE support.

Sometimes I can't help but wonder. Would I ever introduce my future to my past? Would I ever let the 2 things meet? Or is it only me without any past? Probably if my future wanna take part of that I wont deny. But I would never support. 

Today I was inspiring as I was hearing some people talking about the best timing in love. Or the best time to say "i love you". Is there really a "best-time"? Is it like a saturday 8 PM 2014, april 19? Or is it "within 4 month"? Is that really exist? Or should we say "i love you" after an argument?

Then I thought. Is it a solution to force something? In my opinion no matter if it is 3 or 8 or even more than a year to hear the big word. Just think about that...... hearing I love you after an argument will always remind you that this is the "nothing to worry about" world.  Is it the meaning of love? I do not think so.

Or if you hear it every day or week? Would it lose its meaning? I think so. Or at  least in my world. It would. Is the world love represent emotions? I dont think so. Is the world love evidence the feeling? I dont think so either. 

You know the feeling when it hits so hard? If a man makes you cry because of happiness then he has something you might need. 

About me. I gave a lot of blood. Which I hate by the way. The last time I gave was in 2011. And I had to stay there sitting alone because the doctors didn't want to let me go as long as im as white as the wall. I totally understood them. Unlike today. She kicked my ass out of the chair. Ouch! 

I am having exams. 

In this semester I have 3 subjects which I want to be 5. Because they will effect my diplom. And! I have done 2 already. Both of them 5. Cooooool beans! I have one more. And around 6 more less important.

Hmmmm.... Exercising. I am exercising every single day. I do push ups, I do squats, lunges. Everything! It works actually. 

.....In general I can say I am happy. But then I start to think think think and think. And I get insecure. Others say I think way too much I should.  Everybody has a weak side. But that weakness makes them even stronger.