miss photographer

It's been almost a week that I deactivated myself on facebook. And I feel super duperly awesome. I dont miss it at all. I dont really care if anybody misses me there. Because now I am free of all kind of silly messages. Or completely nonsense information. Who are really importnt, I find the way to talk.

I have checked the cameras, and its not even that expensive. So probably by the summer I will buy it. Or spring. Or when I will actually get out of the flat. I actually wanna learn how to make good photos. And as some random people to be my model. Or my cat. I have a beautiful cat. I bet we would make a good company! And I will be able to take more photos of my life like in general. I look forward to get a camera! I am pretty excited about it...

How long is forever? - Sometimes Just one second.

As time passes by, I start figuring out what I wanna do for living. Which is good. My friend asked me. What is your motivation? Then I told him what I wanna do. He said. Yes. This is your plan. Not your motivation. I didn't asked what you wanna do. I asked why you wanna do.
I gave myself 2 seconds to think over the question, and I gave him my perspective. Then he said... wow! how old are you?!  I know my motivations are weird. Maybe I will make a post about motivations. But not yet. I wanna give it more time.

the house I used to live in

Today I have found some pictures of my home. It is so strange to see them as I haven't been there since more than a year.

It's really weird to see. And now I miss living alone. And yess I lived all by myself in this huge house. I had 3 bathroom (used only 2, and then only 1), I had a huge kitchen and I just miss this beautiful big house.

Originaly we lived 5 in this. But then after everybody left, it was only me who stayed and then finally I moved too.
Maybe that's why I dont really miss my family. I got used to live without it.

Best timing

I have so many people in my life who teaches me without knowing it.  Yes I do follow a lot of people, I do follow a lot of people from my life. I have so many experiences that I feel like sometimes I am so worn out.

In my blog I always try to avoid to make my own opinion about others, because its not about that. will never be. I tried to concantrate on my own world and I dont wanna change that. I just keep myself questioning.... Is it really what I wanna do in my life? Am I on the right path? Will I be happy? Is it possible to have something new? Or to change? I am not from a good family, I am not a princess nor a girl with a HUGE support.

Pisces and haters

 I have to admit something. Living alone is not fun. I was alone like mroe than a week. However I also needed it. I totally recharged myself just spending a whole week on myself.  But when my flatmate came back. We were talking like OMG 3 hours. Or when I get home she opens her door and start talking to me what good things happened to her again. And you realise you are happy because she is happy, and you are happy because she shares with you. And once again you are happy because you have someone to talk with.