I am totally disappointed in love. Anyway i am so young. I just have to wait.
Im gaining experiences, and learn from my mistakes. Ppl's life is aaaall about making decisions. Even now. I have made a decision on writing a post right now.
But makes harder this ...... the question. Should I listen to my heart or should I listen to my mind? Ambivalent. I used to followed my emotions. But now. well. I dont. Im tired of making risks by following my emotions. Im again fine so far. And I insist on this.
However today one of my... friend? asked to apologise. Well I really didn't expected this from him. In fact, he hurt me really. And was an asshole last time I saw him. So it actually made my day a bi t. It means he has some respection toward me. Last time I got everything but respection.
Nowdays im really busy. Which I like because if i m busy, i dont have time to feel sorry for myself. It's crazy. I donteven meet with my own flatmate, because she comes home late, I come home late. and we both so tired by the endof the day. Go sleep then booooom. Sleep like a baby. Now my life is all about this, and sport, and some friend.
Some friends invites me to disco and whatever, but I dont know. I dont really feel like going parties and drink like a fish. It's not really me.
However today one of my... friend? asked to apologise. Well I really didn't expected this from him. In fact, he hurt me really. And was an asshole last time I saw him. So it actually made my day a bi t. It means he has some respection toward me. Last time I got everything but respection.
Nowdays im really busy. Which I like because if i m busy, i dont have time to feel sorry for myself. It's crazy. I donteven meet with my own flatmate, because she comes home late, I come home late. and we both so tired by the endof the day. Go sleep then booooom. Sleep like a baby. Now my life is all about this, and sport, and some friend.
Some friends invites me to disco and whatever, but I dont know. I dont really feel like going parties and drink like a fish. It's not really me.
I am planing to move. No not in the near future. It was just an option. That came into my mind. I need change. I am like that. after a while, when too much mess around, I feel like I wanna get outta this. By chnanging the environment, and everything. So this option will be around. I would probablystay in the nerby. Me and my friend were planing this. Would be lovely to live with her. I was living with her before, but then she had to move. Sadly.
However after uni, most likely I will leave this city. Or this country. And I will stick to my friend. I actually told her before. If I leave, you are going to leave with me. She was happy to hear that. And if i wanna something. I go for it with a passion. But firstly uni. It's still a lot of time, so I ve got time to over think this all. I like over thinking things 5475632871 times and make 3476238471765 plans, and 3746523875623876 options.
No comments:
Post a Comment