life is balanced

I dont wanna change NEVER. this is me. Even if I will be 30 year old. I wanna be exactly the same person. I have many faces.

I have realised I can't wear the same costume in all the roles I play in life. I dont say that none of them is me, because however I act, I know it's me. If I would act differently in a certain situation, I would feel... this girl is not me.

I am still learning how to make balance in my working, university and personal life. I still learn how to be in all of them the best. How to chill, study, and work in the same time. 

The past weeks I realised that it was not me the reason why my relationships with boys didnt work. It's because I always was picked by the wrong man. The last time I felt like everything could work. I felt like we could have something. But then boom. all of a sudden.. it disappeared.

Nowdays Im getting know a lot of new people. And I am realising how few people I know. And how many nice, loveable, sweet guys are out there.I am not late. I can build up something special with someone else. 

Before... I could not help but wondering what was wrong with me.
Then I realised it's not me.
Absofuckinglutely  

i choose to be happy

yaay I am happy Just  little bit update. I wasn't really write any post because...
1 nothing ever happened
2 I was bored
3 I was kinda blue

But the past like 1 week I am sooo happy. And indeed now that I know I am healthy! Because I asked for a test that checks my healthI believed I am, but when you actually see on paper that it's "negative", it feels the best! I will make more tests about my health, because I will change a bit, so I need to know if im alright. But this thing to decide kept me like a month. I am afraid of doctors, or rather i afraid if I get to know something ....in case it's not what I want to know.....

I feel like I live a healthy life. I have never smoked, I drink healthy level of alcohol, I workout and I eat clean. And also study. What else could I do for myself?
The past 2 months I tried to reduce my sugar intake to the lowest level, by now I drink even the coffee with no sugar. I can say no for chocolate (since I LOVE chocolate, it was one of the hardest thing).


And now I feel enough motivation to go to gym again. I started going exercises a month ago at my place, and stretching. I love the fact that Im improving... And also I have decided to go iceskating every weekend for an hour long. It's a fun thing to do even if no one will be my company. I could do it forever. I actually love inline skating but in this city it would be a suicide.


well I guess it's pretty much about me. I am still doing my driver licence. To be perfectly honest I didn't really care about it, because as I mentioned I was kinda blue. And I wasnt that motivated about it. But now I wanna get done with this.


Boys? Nope. ......Go away Heart, you are drunk. You never see things realistically.