endorphin

exercising and sports gives me endorphins. I am the perfect example how it works.
I have injured myself a lot of time during exercising, and I didn't even notice. just after that I finished that "what the fuck is that? blooooooooooodddd????? "

Someone might not know what the hell is that. This is a protein. One of my favorite part of the whole body.
Everybody can easily get it.
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Chocolate. There may be a physiological reason we crave chocolate when we are feeling blue. Chocolate contains chemicals called N-acyclethanoloamines that reportedly boosts endorphins. Stick with high quality, dark chocolate.
Chili peppers. Eating hot peppers may improve your mood. Capsaicin, the substance that makes peppers hot, is reported to increase the secretion of endorphins. The hotter the pepper, the greater the effect.
Acupuncture. Some research suggests that the reason acupuncture is so effective is that it causes a release of endorphins.
Exercise. Numerous studies have shown that exercise stimulates endorphins. Heavy weight lifting and sprinting are thought to have the biggest impaction on endorphin secretion. Prolonged aerobic exercise can also lead to the famed "runner's high" - a possible product of endorphins.
Sex. Orgasm releases endorphins. In an interview with iVillage, Alan Hirsch, MD, neurological director of the Smell & Taste Treatment and Research Foundation in Chicago points out that having sex is a lot easier than going for a long run.

so yeah probably I didn't felt it because of this. I actually adore sport. Even if I get hurt. I would still do it if I could. **see below**
I just have to overcome of my fears. I am not brave enough  to do those things. how pity 

plants and spinning!

If summer... That means onlyone thing.

GREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN
I love green. I love yellow. I love blue.
And today. I bought-planted plants. I started fill the falt with green. I lovethem. so so so much. Before I  moved my other flat was fullof green. Plants and flowers everywhere.
I feel perfect if my environment is bright and natural. and spacious. If I could I would move somewhere else where I can have river in the nearby. or seeeeeeeea!
I am sure when I will be moving, the city has to be:

• big
• young
• havea lot lot lot lot of sport possibility 
• has at least one big normal swimming pool
• has place for running
• has a big calm park with squirrels
• and greeen really green 
• and i would love to have a river!

I have a new hobby. Since the past days I got tonsillitis. I had to give up jogging as long as I have this crap. So I started spinning. Spinracing. It is awesome. Luckily during the day i am better than in the morning or in the evening/night, so it's not a problem to keep being active! yay
aaaaand more active better concentration on my studies! I just have a lot to study. ooooooooohh gosh!

stay

And I stay. Yay! I was about to leave for a year. To havea gap year, and spend the whole year in a dif country. I actually had my accomodation and everything, I was thinking about it quite a lot. and I decided I will have this 2 year here in this city. Get my lovely degrees. and then I can start looking for an other option to stu
dy or my master degree. I wanna finish with my studies. And I wanna keep on studying russian.
And I love this flat anyway. I dont wanna lose it.
So yeah  that is pretty much it. 2 years. Not long time. I am at half time at the moment. 2 years are behind me. 2 years still are coming. And I will be done!





How i am these days? I am alright. I started again jogging. Howeve now i am sick. Guess it is some kind of influ. Ihave headache and everything. But most likely I will go jogging anyway.
My diet works fine. Though my legs are a little bit too strong.
Heeeeeels <3

Exams are coming. I am afraid a bit. oouuch!

tonight

I was out the last night with some of my friends. It was awesome. Well I wanted to get drunk but I didn't. I mean. I was happy and hiper super duper honest. But the CAPITAL-LETTER-DRUNK-DRUNK. No this level I didnt get. Probably this is why i am not being hangover and i am already awaken.And of course because i have a lot lot of energy!
Let's see during the night I realized at least 4 things.
First : Someone might not look as good in a closer view as I tought he was. Which is a good news. Indeed it is! Лучше поздно, чем никогда....
Second : Someone does wanna talk to me, and also a good dancer! still!
Third: well I knew this one for long time, I just got a confirmation. doesnt matter
Forth: To someone I just not simply wanna "close the door" and I didn't know,  ever could make me happy to hear "Im not really fine with my gf". muhahaha

Would I ever try with someone who has got a gf? Ujjjjjjjj Nej.  Больше никогда! nye harosaja igra. indeed

And now I just wanna show an awesome music. (at least its perfect for my taste) 
Bulgarian folk-pop music. I am too involved in this. Ahhh!

And today, I will buy some plants. I need greens. I need it. I mean it. I ama huge plants fan. The more the better. And of course I will study, and I will workout, and jogging, and ulala

revolutionary road and some musics

Today I watched a movie. And (I actually loved the movie. every single moment!) But there was a scene that made me think.
The boy admited that he fucked a girl . And the wife asked why you said it to me.Then the man answered, because it's over now. So obviously since it is over, he tells it. otherwise he would not.  And the man wants the wife to care about it. To be angry. or saysomething, because he loves his wife.



I started again jogging. The weather is perfect. And I am so happy. I actuallyhave favorite jogging song. :

If I listen this:
I CAN MAKE EVERYONE SURE, I am flying. Since I try to keep the rhythm. My average speed is like 23123521 km/h!:))
I always have to pay attention not to move like a freak when I listen to music in the street. The worse when I come downstairs. My legs are just move for the rhythm! UNCONTOLABLE
Damn I love dancing so badly.
Jogging and dancing till I die!

who am I?

I still have no clue what I wanna do in my life. I have no clue. I simply have no clue. Do I wanna be a teacher? or a business something? Or a whatever.
Why do I wanna be these things? Because I enjoy? Or maybe because I wanna make money? Or just because I wanna have a sure job. Anyway.. Is there any 'sure' job nowadays?  I am still so young, I dont know what i am doing, and I dont know my purposes. I have no clue where my destination is. I think I just flow with the river.

Probably if I could choose what I wanna do in my life. Acting. Singing.  Writing poems and musics..lyrics. And read 934729361 books. 
.....yesterday me and my friend went out for a walk and we were singiiiiing. Just like that. Loudly. and laughing. And just dont care that others wanna sleep. And I loved it.
He always makes me believe I can sing, because he tells me every time, what a great voice I have. Anyway. Even if I can not sing. I still
enjoy!

He asked me to sing let it be from beatles. and I tried. because why not. 


And of course I sang my favorite singing musics.
THIIIIIS:

 

probably no one knows this about me booo

1. When I lie, my mouth is opened
   
2. Everytime I have to go to toilett in a totally different place I have to close my eyes and imagine I am at home :D
   
3. I did have a imaginary friend.
   
4. I love doing odd, strange or dirty things in public
   
5. When I was younger I had Obsessive-compulsive disorder  I was 6-10 years old. I outgrew so far.
   
6. I have several favorite number. But all of them can be related to 4. Can be multiplication of 4, or can be divide without remainder. (4 because I had 4 members in my family)
   
7. Im writing a diary since my age 12
   
8. I hated nursery. And I used to go to speech therapist, because I was not able tospeak normally
   
9. My nickname is used to be CIA, because I spoke with a lisp, and said CIA instead of SZIA.  (still I pay attention if someone says CIA, because I think (s)he is gonna talk to me)
   
10. I love acting. Also when I talk I tend to use too much gesticulation and face muscles without noticing.
    
11. I am unable to speak english with hungarian people. Everytime i have to im struggling.
    
12. I hate blue eyes. I mean it. I HATE
    
13. There is no such a situation when I didn't try how it is feels like to sing a song
    
14. I had sport class in nursery. Then I went to a school where I had PE every single day. I attended several athletic competition. I used to be very good in long-jumping, high-jumping, short-run, climb-rope, ring,  I workout since 4 years (or train..whatever) I do yoga ince 3 years and I walk jog a lot.
    
    This is all I know now.