work? tell me about it how hard

I am really extremly tired of my family. I mean. I dont wanna be rude. I dont wanna be like crazy. But can I be just honest?

summer is coming

I started doing yoga! Again. I am very happy that as I started jogging and going to the gym and practicing yoga I started getting back my good old body.

I think my newest addiction is eyebrow.I am so addcited to it. I check every girls eyebrow is its good or not. I read about it how to do. And checked girls how they do. Finaly I think I learned how to do it well. LOL I like it now the way it looks. 

#poem?

Decided on writing a poem? Yes. I felt my creativity is about to explode. 

is good-enough enough?

I am alright. I am much better. Before the past 2 weeks I was at home (except work) And I did nothing on the earth. So many things was in my mind in the same time. I was so lost and insecure.

I was about to fed up with some boys too who always write to me and asks to meet. I asked them do you wanna me becasue you wanna sex? Or do you wanna meet me because you expect something in return? They said yes. Well I said then fuck off. 
I dont think that I wanna be in any kind of connection to anyone. I mean lets be superficial. That is noharm.

the best company

I wasn't blogging for a long time. I was busy. I am still busy. But today I made up some time.

I thought its a relationship that I need. But I am realising I was mistaken. I thought if I had someone my life would be much better. Or at least I could be much happier. But no. It wasn't the way I expected. For me the happier I am the slimmer I am. I lost zero fat.
The last time I was very slim was in 2012. When I spent the whole day with my neighbour's dog. I know it might sound funny. But could it be possible that all I need is a company that can be with me any time? I had always a very close relationship with animals. I always had a dog with me. This is the first time that I dont have.

belong to whom

Maybe the hardest part in life is to walk away from something that one day put a smile on your face. And realise there are certain things that will never work. No matter how hard we try. No matter how hard we want. It's just not meant to be.
There is no sense to force something. It's not the person. It's never the person. It's the way they make you feel. The attention they pay. The caring company they offer on a lonely day.
Suddenly you remember all the good things. Because you know it's about to finish.

miss photographer

It's been almost a week that I deactivated myself on facebook. And I feel super duperly awesome. I dont miss it at all. I dont really care if anybody misses me there. Because now I am free of all kind of silly messages. Or completely nonsense information. Who are really importnt, I find the way to talk.

I have checked the cameras, and its not even that expensive. So probably by the summer I will buy it. Or spring. Or when I will actually get out of the flat. I actually wanna learn how to make good photos. And as some random people to be my model. Or my cat. I have a beautiful cat. I bet we would make a good company! And I will be able to take more photos of my life like in general. I look forward to get a camera! I am pretty excited about it...